Goddess Born (WIP TITLE)

I haven’t written on here in quite some time. Instead, I have been reading, researching and writing my novel. Currently still a WIP named Goddess Born. I’m casting about for a new title for various reasons, or possibly subtitles. But I digress.

Sitting at about 82,000 words, Goddess Born’s first draft was done by the end of December 2017. Then I put off editing. Then personal things happened and it got put off some more. But I’m slogging through edits now. Soon to be sent out to my beta readers.

I have decided to self-publish this novel, because traditional publishing takes forever. Also, there’s no guarantee that it’d get published even if I found an agent. Then we’d have to find a publisher. Then…yeah.

So here I am. Plugging my soon-to-be-ready novel. I even designed a cover for the book. I drew maps for the world. And I really got into the world building. I’m very happy with it, though there is at least one major to do I need to fix before I send it off to beta readers.

I’m hoping to have it released before the end of the year. My kids are going to start school in a couple weeks so I’ll have a little more time to write and edit.

Keep your eyes peeled for Goddess Born updates. There’s plenty to come.

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Planning Your Book When You’ve Already Started Writing

On Monday I published a blog about an author, Rachel Arron (AKA Rachel Bach).  And I’ve been applying her ideas for writing quickly. So instead of writing this organically, I’ve stopped the writing part of the writing and started the “Well now what?” part.

I’ve done much more world building than I’ve ever done before. I even drew a MAP. Complete with Marshes, forests, mountains, hills, rivers, lakes. No roads. Yet. I named countries I’ll probably never see (in this work at least). And it was so much FUN.

When I started this. I didn’t have a name for my world. I do now. Or the countries where it took place. Which I also now have. Not only did I draw the map, I added a table. My world is called Livvarden. The table has the country, what it is known for, it’s capital and major cities.


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not really my map lol. If you want to see my map go to my Goddess Born page.


Between the table, map and taking care of the house and children, I spent almost two whole days on this. Yesterday, I named my god/desses (also have a table for them). Today, I’m naming some extra characters (more tables). I’m enjoying all of this, and why didn’t I think of it before?

But all this naming and hashing things out I’m avoiding one thing. The Plot. Probably the biggest part of any book. Rachel Arron makes a list of major scenes. And I started that list then it just…stopped. Right where I had stopped the novel itself.

I’m more or less stuck at this point and can’t seem to connect point “D” (somewhere between 1/3 and 1/2 way through) to point “Z” (the ending).

Well, I’ve pretty much covered this step of her writing process. In the next step she fleshes out the plot. And before she starts writing, she’s more or less written the entire novel. no dialogue, but she has this happens which causes this and person a feels like this. I’m thinking, if I skip ahead to this step of the process, I might be able to continue. Then, theoretically, the rest of the actual writing will be a breeze

Thanks for reading. Let me know what you think.

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Ups and Downs of the Writing Life

There is a huge drawback to writing on the computer. You can get dependent on the technology.

I was riding a high wave on my CampNaNo project. I was above and beyond the number count every day, averaging about 1700 words per day. Then the worst thing that could possibly happen happened. My computer decided it didn’t want to start.

I spent the next couple days trying to decide if I really needed a computer or not. While they are getting more affordable, how much computer did I really need? The more computer, the bigger the price. I realize that what I really do is I write, surf a little bit, and that’s pretty much all I do on the computer. I don’t need huge graphics. I hate the idea of a touch screen.  But I did want a cd/dvd drive as I’m still partial to my cds so a “flip” computer was pretty much out.

I had been riding the high of CampNaNo and suddenly came to a screeching halt. With the finish line  in sight. I tried writing on a pad and simply couldn’t get any words out. So I went from almost 2k words higher than the goal to 5k below the daily goal in just a couple days.

Now it’s the last day. And I have only written a handful of words since this happened. I went from writing 1700 words a day to less than 100 words a day. I totally lost myself, my enthusiasm and my story in trying out a new computer.

Bear with me here. I’m going on a tangent. I have recently reconnected to twitter, just like this blog. I check it two to three times a day, sometimes I tweet, sometimes I don’t. Since rejoining I have added 40 new followers and am following almost 100 more than I was previously. I have no idea how, but I came across Joanna Penn and followed her.

A few days ago she tweeted about an interview podcast that she did with author Rachel Aaron/Bach.  She wrote the Eli Monpress series and a few other series. In this interview she talks about how she writes TEN THOUSAND words a day. And I thought oh. my. god. That’s insane!

MyAnd only watching a decade later will we understand all the other jokes... first reaction is there was no way I could possibly reach 10k a day. She and I have drastically different lives. She’s a full-time writer. I’m a full-time mother and homemaker. She has one young son. I have triplet toddlers. She’s been published both traditionally and self-published. I have only had a few articles published in a college magazine.

My second reaction was: “Well why the heck can’t I?” If I say I can’t, I probably won’t. And I may not be able to make the 10k every day, but if I could religiously do 4k would be amazing! So I listened to the podcast again. I found her blog and in particular the post where she talks about how she increased her writing from 2k to 10k a day in about a month. I’m not going to go into detail about how she did. But if you’d like to read it you can here.

Getting back to my original idea. Writing has always been up and down for me as I write in an organic way allowing the story more or less to write itself. Doing this, I’m probably never going to get published, self or traditional. I have started more than 5 novels. Although I love them all, I ride the high and when I get stuck and the story stops writing itself, I stop.

This CampNaNo I was insistent on “winning” right up until my computer crashed and I lost all hope. But now I can take what worked for her, find what parts work for me and apply it to my writing. Just because I only have a few hours a day to myself doesn’t mean I can’t break 2k every single day.

Time to start the experiment. I’ve more or less used up all my writing time today to get this post done. Awful I know. Since NaNo was keeping track of my writing, I’ll be able to use that as my “before” numbers. I’ll apply what I can to my writing and I’ll track what happens. I’ll let you know about my progress in a week or so. My goal is to reach 4k a day in my 2-3 hour writing period every day.

Stay tuned.



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Potty Training Triplets

I have mentioned before that I have triplets now. They are 2 years old (going on twenty I think). It’s a joy. Most of the time. The rest of the time I wonder where my sweet babies have gone and who switched them with the little hellions from outer space.

We have passed several hurdles. The first was sleeping through the night. My kids were good sleepers. And we had no real issues. They were born at the beginning of April by their first Mother’s day they were sleeping at 5-6 hour stretches at night. By Father’s day they slept 8 hours regularly. We just switched them to toddler beds instead of cribs and they didn’t have any issues. But they do like getting up at night. Sometimes. P1070344

Our second hurdle, was weaning. I have taken the long approach to weaning. My goal was to make it to two years.  I researched the subject often and decided that this was the best course of action was a longer exposure to breastmilk decreases the risk of developing type II diabetes. We have type I and type II diabetes in our family. So I decided it was best for them. We are now officially no longer nursing.  They have been off the bottle for a long time so the only time they got breastmilk was when they nursed. They take regular milk at night, but they don’t get bottles. We use no spill sipper cups. They also use straw sippers. Once we get them to not turn over their cups regularly, we’ll move on to normal cups.

The third hurdle that we’re attempting to handle right now is potty training. This is a pretty big issue for us because there are THREE OF THEM. And one of me. Daddy is gone is most days with work. So it’s just me trying to potty train all of them. And I have felt more than once that I’m outnumbered. We started off once a day on the potty. Then I use a combination of cloth and disposable diapers (cloth during the dat at home, disposables at night and when we go out). We recently upped potty time to twice a day. When they get up from nighttime and when they get up from naptime.

potty-trainingAnd this is taking forever. They are more than happy to tell me that they have dirtied a diaper but they have shown reluctance to using the potty. Right now they get treat whenever they use the potty. But there are some days, sometimes several days in a row when no one uses the potty even once.

I have read about the three day potty training. And if I had only one kid. No problem. I would do it. But with THREE?! Oh heck no. If I tried the three day potty training several things would happen. 1. The only thing I would have time for is putting kids on the potty. 2. I wouldn’t get any sleep. 3. I would be doing laundry all the time.  For at least three days. So I guess you can imagine why I’m not ready to try this. Many of these “fully potty trained” children in three days the parents still get them up at night several times to go potty.

I have also read the “let them run around naked.” My answer is: Not Happening. My son gets his diaper off often enough without that and has peed and pooped on my carpets several times because of this. I really don’t want my home to smell like an outhouse.

Until they are potty trained though, we continue to spend $100-$200 a month a diapers. Are there any other tips on potty training triplets? If I had more help, and less room for the children to terrorize me with, I’d be happy to try the three day method. Maybe I should just let my boy go outside naked. I’ve been told that helps. But then again, it’s so freaking hot (yesterday’s high was near 100) so maybe no.







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Happy Birthday to Me.

My birthday is coming up. And I’m not entirely sure how I feel about it. I’m no where close to where I once thought I’d be at this particular point in my life. It’s not even a “milestone” age. I just once thought I’d be, if not a published writer, then at least successfully pursuing a career somewhere.

But I’m not. I’m a stay-at-home mom of three little ones. And this is something I have never dreamed that I’d be. There are days that I love being able to stay with my kids all day. Then there others where I really don’t want to share a room with them by 10am and I have them to myself for another eight hours.


But I really shouldn’t complain. There are many people who want to be able to stay at home. I’m lucky that we can “afford” for me to be here with my kids.

And what I mean by that is the cost of childcare for my children is currently more than most jobs I could get. So it’s more affordable for me to stay here. Originally I thought “Yay! Lots of free time to work on my writing!”

What happened was: change a diaper. burp baby. wipe up the mess. Rock them gently. Teething! Then when they turned a year. Oh My God! They’re walking. No you can’t go there. Put that back. You’re going to break it! Now they’re two. And it’s potty training all day. Don’t you dare sass me. Put that back. You took your diaper off…AGAIN! And pooped on the rug. Sigh.

Still. The more independent they get, theoretically I get more time. Most of my writing even now is a sentence here. A few words there. If I’m lucky I’ll get a whole paragraph down.

But I’ve realize that if I really want to write I’ll make time for it. I’ll get up a few minutes early. Even an hour early doesn’t guarantee a full hour writing though. I’ll try to stay up a little later.

I have been participating in Camp NaNoWriMo. And I said this is the year that I win! I said that every year. But I’m making it a priority this year and I have stayed more or less on track. Yes there was one day that I only wrote 100 words. But I’ve also had a 2000 word day. And multiple 1800 word days that more than made up for it. I have sixteen days left and I’m siting at 25810 words of all brand new story.

Smiling Mother And Daughter

I’ll also write while they nap. This is my heaven time. They’re all asleep and I have anywhere from 1 to 3 hours of ME time. I often don’t spend all of it writing. I’ll do a little of everything during this time. But my two favorite activities: a nap, and writing.

But back to my birthday. No I’m not where I thought I’d be. I’m in a completely different world. However, I am making finally making this world work for me. And all I want for my birthday is a day. Yep. One whole day where I don’t have to lift a finger for housework, or taking care of kid and I can sleep and write to my hearts content.

Yeah. Like that’d happen. I suppose I’ll have to settle for the composter I’ve had my eye on for years and a new book. Maybe a little bling for my car. So happy birthday to me.


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Procrastination Sation

I am probably the world’s best procrastinator. I’m so good that I started this particular post years ago, left mid-sentence and never came back. Today is the day that I finish it. Maybe. I’ll give it my best. But what if, instead of procrastinating, what I’m really doing is letting life tell me what I should be doing. I need to do dishes. Fold clothes. Put the kids to nap and/or bed. Change diapers. Vacuum….again.

The list never ends. And that’s why this post and blog died. Let’s face it, no posts in three years? Yep. Dead. Maybe it’s not dead dead, just kind of dead. Like a rechargeable battery.

But to get back on point. I procrastinate in a number of ways.  I can be completely happy staring at a blank wall, watching life in another reality unfold around me. In fact, I can do multiple things at once while putting of what I should be doing. For instance, I can watch TV while I make a phone call that I didn’t need to make and look at random stuff on the internet, while I put off filling out a background check so I can work on base.

While in school, I often thought that procrastination was good for me. I put off everything to the last minute. Then I’d plunge ahead  and write a paper in record time. And the adrenaline is pumping. I think I just wrote the BEST paper ever. It never was. Perhaps the best paper written in record time like that.

Even now, although I’m writing, I’m actually procrastinating. I’m procrastinating the editing of the novel that I wrote, house work, my camp nano novel (which I’m liking so much more than my previous novel)…and a couple of other things that I’m putting off as well. My point is…I finished writing the first draft of my novel. But now I can’t seem to make myself edit it. I haven’t picked up since December of last year. Some time and distance is good. I’ll admit, but I think I’m actually scared to finish it.

And so I do everything I can to keep myself busy from writing, or editing. Or anything that might further my novel.

Okay, that may not be the only reason, but it definitely is one reason behind all of these things. I’m so busy, and I procrastinate on all of it so I don’t “have time” to work on what really matters to me.

When I was working in the archives at school. I met a British guy who was pursuing a degree in art. He is, what I call, absurdly rich. He wears a kilt. He’s blunt, and says things that made me laugh so hard I actually thought I might burst sometimes. But he’s completely serious. He loaned the archives a collection of medieval manuscripts and illuminations worth well over a million dollars. And all of this is irrelevant, because he’s also passionate about art and philosophy and history.

Passion. It’s like the opposite of procrastination. It lights a fire in your soul. In your mind. And you can’t let it go. And I love writing. I really thought I was passionate about it. But if I am passionate about writing, why do I let life and everything else get in the way and procrastinate?

I’m afraid. Not that I might finish something, but that I’ll get to that one point, ready to jump into publishing and…there isn’t anything to jump into. That I’ll send off letter after letter to get rejection after rejection. The abyss of being unpublished because I’m simply not good enough.

I have had family, friends, teachers, even complete strangers complement my writing. And yet I’m terrified that once it’s done I’ll find out everyone lied. In fact, nobody likes it, I’m a terrible writer. That is my fear.

And so I let life get in the way. And I let things slide. Because if it’s not finished, then it can’t be rejected.

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Long time no see

It’s been a while since I’ve written on my blog. I kept meaning to and I kept putting it off. Procrastinating is something I’m very good at.

I consistently let life get the better of me. And unfortunately, I feel the affects. I got married. Bought a house. Graduated with a Masters degree. Had three kids who have completely overrun my life (I’ll call them J, F, and P). So. I’ve been busy. I kept feeling as if my life wasn’t quite complete.

Don’t get me wrong. I love taking care of, talking about, and generally spending time with my triplets.

But my other children were suffering. The stories I wanted to write. The ones I started. The ones that I was meant to write.

Last month, I got an idea about a new story. And I wrote it down. It was a compete scene. And I turned the idea over in my head for several days. I finally decided that it was worth pursuing. And I started the story at the beginning of July as a Camp NaNo story.

I haven’t felt better. I have more energy. I feel happier. And when I’m really stressed from three children who have cried non-stop for five hours, I have somewhere else to go without even leaving my home. And I think this is why I won’t stop this time. Because I just have to write.

So hello again. Long time no see. And I’m here to stay.

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